Musings of a ManicButterfly

Sometimes brilliant. Sometimes ridiculous. Mostly random and a little obsessive.

I was seventeen years old when I watched ‘The Fall’ on a whim, not knowing that this movie was going to change my life. At the time I was suffering from heavy depression, anxiety and on the verge of emotional and physical collapse due to Anorexia and Bulimia. 

Upon seeing this movie, it changed my outlook on life. It showed me that despite thinking I was alone, that there was no one around who cared and even when I thought I was undesirable, there was always someone. I came to realize that the world is not perfect and it is filled with heartbreak, hatred and curses but it also is filled with beauty and hope. That you are never alone, that there is always someone who depends on you and leaving them alone, like the many who left me, creates a malicious cycle of anger and sorrow. 

The day I saw this movie was the day I went into recovery for my eating disorders, it was the day I decided to get help for my mental issues and it was the day that I decided to come clean about my behaviour to those I loved. It was the beginning of the steady road to happiness, to feeling love. Since that evening, I have dedicated my life to surviving the impossible and to making it out alive. I have come to terms with my issues, I have come to terms with the struggles I still have ahead of me, but I have also come to terms with the amazing people in my life who have tried to help me all along but I never allowed them to. 

It took a quiet evening on April 20th, 2013 to realize how precious my life is, that every bandit has a happy ending and most importantly, that the water is only waist high. (x)

Beautiful

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and miles to go before I sleep

I’m on so much caffeine that my brain is hyperthreading

Lord forgive me… I know I shouldn’t be cussing out little old ladies over ambiguous pie recipes, but if the old bat had been more specific about the flour measurements, I might have retained my sanity.
#tartealabouillie #fuckpiebaking #andallthatitentails #culinaryhijinx

Lord forgive me… I know I shouldn’t be cussing out little old ladies over ambiguous pie recipes, but if the old bat had been more specific about the flour measurements, I might have retained my sanity.
#tartealabouillie #fuckpiebaking #andallthatitentails #culinaryhijinx

My curiosity got the best of me… I just had to go and explore this place. Abandoned buildings always look so lonely. 😕

My curiosity got the best of me… I just had to go and explore this place. Abandoned buildings always look so lonely. 😕

designed-for-life:

Valley of the Moon Ranch Asks For $12.5 mill

smack bang in the middle of Montana’s remote and oh-so-scenic Valley of the Moon is this spacey, ultra-modern ranch designed by Argentinean architect and industrial designer Emilio Ambasz

Why the decor of this remarkable manse is so utterly and completely disappointing is a mystery, but for a buyer with $12.5M and credit card, all can soon be made right with the world.

Pride and Prejudice (2005) + running

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That embarrassing moment when you find yourself mentally (or worse, out loud) having a ‘get ur mind right’ convo with characters from the book you’re reading because, dammit, SOMEONE needs to talk some sense into them before they do something really stupid.

For Derek, he’s gonna face a lot of new challenges, challenges that we haven’t seen any of the characters go through yet.

Tyler Hoechlin in What’s new in Season 4

Yeah sure, I mean what challenges has Derek faced, really? His sister being mutilated by his uncle, facing off with his family’s killer, taking down a mass murdering kanima, fighting geriatric psychos and megalomaniacal super alphas, being maimed by his younger sister two hours after reuniting with her, having his pack decimated and scattered, battling oni and a 1000 year old demon fox, being gutted, shot, battered and had his first new girlfriend since Kate probably turn into a revenge seeking druid dabbling in human sacrifice?

I mean, really??

You know what we should do?

We should fuck with Derek.

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Exactly.

Dammit, I know he’s everyone’s favorite whipping boy, but can we PLEASE, for the love of HALE, leave my poor baby alone for five fucking minutes??!?!

jasonfnsaint:

The Breakfast Club (1985)

And this, ladies and gents, is where girls I learned to fall in love with ill-tempered, brooding assholes. Damn you, John Hughes.

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